It was supposed to be Mid Autumn Festival..... but the sky was filled with haze..and the supposingly bright round moon was all hidden in the midst of the haze.....the air was stuffy and smelly...and I could sense that I can't breathe properly as I have been unwell lately....and with the air reaching a unhealthy PSI of over 100points.....instead of the inital plan of walking around with my lantern...I have to stay indoor..ending up playing Xbox...
Sigh.....guess I have to wait for another year to carry lantern.......Keke...go ahead and say I am childish...but I really miss my childhood days...where we(neighbourhood kids will carry the paper lantern...lit with candles..and walk around...with the other kids in the neighbourhood...and have food, tibitis...and drinks.....Those were the days...when we were young and innocent and we were free from troubles and worries.....
It's part and parcel of life that as human aged and start to understand things around them, they realise...God have actually...already created a path for them to go through.....some people will go through a smooth journey..while some people..will go through a life full of hurdles where they will have to fall and pick themself up to walk again.....
Guess I belongs to the 2nd category group of people.....But the strange things that happen is that always when people fall...then they start to learn and appreciate things around them.....is life actually a beauty?.....Is really staying alive....a HOPE!! Somehow this remain a BIG QUESTION MARK to me...Why...I am saying this is not because I am pessismitic.....but in life I have seen so many things...yet no blessing have fallen on me yet....I am still waiting for that day to come......Who will answer my prayers.....
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Cat, please don't think that way.. At where you are in your work and in life, you've been surrounded by friends, family and loved ones who care so much about you and love you. To me, that is a huge blessing..
I'm not saying that we have to compare ourselves with people who are starving in Africa to feel lucky.. But ultimately, I believe it all comes down what your expectations are.
Bear in mind too that things are often not what you perceived them to be. When you look into the lives of other people, as rosy as it may seem, you never knew the scars that lie beneath and the pain these people have to go through.
To give you an example, I have a colleague whom I've admired heaps as she knows what she's doing and is so successful in research. And I've always wonder why I can never do the same. But one day, I decided to jump the gun and started chatting with her. And I found out that she left home when she was 18 with an old beat-up car and $500 in her account. Her mum has been criticising her since she was young and had drinking problems. Her sisters were basically like leeches. She worked really hard, doing all kinds of odd jobs she could.. put herself through uni, worked in several positions, suffered bullying from her female bosses.. But she refused to let anything or anyone put her down. And now, she's a millionaire, has a young family, doing her PhD, widely recognised by our peers in academia.. and someone who doesn't know her will comment that she's really lucky.. she'll probably go yeah right.. you don't know what she had been through and what she's going through at the moment.
So yeah.. don't wanna sound too cliche but do count your blessings! :)
xoxox,
me
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