Went back to doctor this morning on 24Apr(Tue) for my CT scan result.

It was a blessing in diguise...I heaved a sigh of relief......The intense pain on my pancreas is actually caused by my gallstone that is creating a blockage at the pancreas...

So far no damage has been done to the Pancreas yet......I quietly heaved a sigh of relief....I was damn sad and worried for the past 1 wk when my blood test shows sigh of abnormality on my Pancreas...

Doctor gave me some painkiller to relief my pain and ask me to see him in 3 weeks time....
He ask me not to eat too much or oily/deep fried food to prevent my pancreas from overworking.....

If the pain does not subside in the next few weeks, then I might have to go for OPs....
I quietly tell myself that if my pancreas is alright, I will go back for church service....
well..Guess I will keep to my promise...and go back church service...see if I will regain my faith again...

Now I am just hoping for the long weekend to come.....as I will be flying off to Bangkok...
Too bad..I can only go there to relax and enjoy the massage...No good food for me....

But that's alright..most importantly...is my health condition did not worsen.....

Weekend wasn't fantastic....

Had my CT scan done on Friday(20-Apr) morning....
Initially had wanted to go back to work after my scan. But it ended quite late and I was rather tired...so decided to take the day off for a good rest.

Reach the hospital at about 9.30am.....did some blood test before proceeding to register for my CT scan.
By the time I have finished registering, it was already 10+...
I was called into the nurse room where she inserted a plug onto my hand.....for the contrast to be inserted during the scanning...

I was also given a bottle of barium to drink for the next 2 hrs....The purpose of the barium is to allow CT scan to clearly see my organs clearly when the barium flow through...

To begin with, of course the barium doesn't taste nice and what make it worse was that I feel quite bloated and still have to swallow that big bottle of yucky barium.
Scan ended at 1+ in the afternoon, decided to take the day off since I am feeling unwell and it will be quiet late by the time I reach office.

Slept eary at about 1030 pm as I wasn't feeling too good.
Sat and Sun wasn't fantastic either.
Tummy was painful throughout the weekend thus didnt sleep well at night. Had to constantly feed myselfwith tramadol(painkiller) to reduce the pain......I can only weep silently.

Well I guess by now you should know I have been spending my weekend lying on bed...not even have the energy to walk around or even talk.

KT ask me to have faith in GOD..and I will heal...apparently since the ordeal 10 years ago, I have lost all faith in GOD.

In anyway what I don't understand is....since he is a believer of God, he can pray for my recovery ma....and it should work right...
Why must the victim itself to be believer before it works...then what is the purpose of christian always saying..."I will pray for your recovery"?
Anyway...I was dead tired....and in pain....not even the slightest energy to think further.....
Going to see doctor on Tuesday(24-Apr) for the result of my scan to determine the amount of damage that has been done for my Pancreas....

I am just a simple girl..with a simple wish..that is to stay healthy...now in this situation..I don't even know...if my little wish of having a baby of my own can be fulfilled.

For people out there who have read my blog...and are believers of GOD....do say a little prayer for my recovery.

Wish me luck in my fight against this painful ordeal.......

17 Apr(tuesday) went to see doctor for regular checkup. Well.....it wasn't a fantastic thing to be visiting hosp regularly

Did some other blood test today as I was having tummy pain last 2 weeks....

After the morning checkup, I proceed back to work. At about 3pm in the same afternoon, I received a call from the hospital. Asking me to go back today(13Apr) as the doctor wants to talk to me.....he said...my blood test was abnormal and there are damages on my PANCREAS.....

I was at a loss when I received the news. I do not know what is the functionality of PANCREAS nor what is happening to me as it comes too sudden....my "Amylase" and "Lipase" test was exceptionally high out of range.

I check up the internet and realise that PANCREAS is use for digestion and according to doctor damages in PANCREAS will lead to diabetics easily in future.....sigh..."Is Life FAIR?"

He tells me...now he can only wait for the scan result next Tuesday to see how much damage is done to my Pancreas before he can decide on the next step to take......


I still haven't get married, have kid,hubby and a happy family of my own.......I have always yearn to have my own kid since I was a small child....now with all this happening...is my dream going to be dash...I am just a simple woman with just a simple wish.....But why is all this happening to me..."Why has life been so unfair to me"

Since I managed to live on after the ordeal 10 years old, why issit that GOD cannot let me live my life peacefully and create all this ordeal one after another for me.....
When is all this going to STOP

The weekend really sucks...


First it begin on Thursday nite....It was supposed to be KT buddy birthday. His buddy wife "Ms A" wanted to organise a suprise dinner for his huby....

The meeting time was supposed to be at one of the restaurant at 7.15pm at Marina Sq. Well as usual, the punctual me arrive at 7.15pm and was seated in the restaurant. KT has already informed me that he be arriving approx at 8pm due to a last min meeting at Yio Chu Kang.

Of course the understanding me is not the least unhappy.I sms the "Ms A" at 7.15pm upon seated.....Guess what...she called me at 7.30pm...and told me she be slightly late....I ask her what time is slightly late because the restaurant is very packed..and I don't wanna sit on a big table chopping seat alone not knowing what time they arrive ...The weird thing is a person knows she is arriving late and cannot inform me beforehand...must late already then inform ...isn't that weird??

This is our dialogue

Ms A: I be slightly late
Me: What time is slightly? Can you give me a approx time rather than tell me slightly...
Ms A: Now is 7.30pm and from Bugis to Marina, there might be jam should i be slightly late but I do not know what time.

Well I was pissed now....

Me: So you cannot tell me what time you reach? I don't want to look silly sitting here and disrupting people from doing business. I am going to rebook the table at 8.15pm.

Then I put down the phone......

I was damn pissed alraedy.....There was supposed to be another couple who was supposed to be there as well.....

When I left the restaurant, I met the couple at 7.45pm somewhere in marina Sq....They were strolling slowly towards the restaurant. When they met me....first thng they say is they are late because they need to collect the cake...Well I told them I have cancel the booking and rebook at 8.15pm. Come back later...I said.....

Think they know that I am pissed...Well of course I think that is not a good excuse. Is not the last min they know they need to collect cake. Why do you give the excuse that you are late because u need to collect cake? Nobody inform me what time who is reaching...I seems like a stupid fool lor.....

In the end..guess what time they reach..?? 8.15pm..which means they were late for a total of 1HOUR.....Lucky I was thinking right not to sit tn the resturant and wait...

Well we had to rush off for a show at 9.30pm at MS. The movie is call "SUNSHINE". The movie sucks...is a science fiction movie....I thought Michelle Yeoh was in the movie and thought it be some action packed kind..starring Michelle Yeoh. So it be nice...who knows...sigh.wasted my $19 and almost fell asleep in the movie.....The newsaper still talk abt how nice is the movie..."PUI"...

Give me free I also don't want to watch..rather stay at home and sleep...Well...it was one of the worst long weekend I had for this year....

And the lousy weekend didn't end there...I had a terrible tummy pain on saturday. took painkiller one after another...it didn't stop torment me till 4am on Sunday..that i felt better...O No...."It's back"